Thursday, February 19, 2015

Snow days

After the snow storm Monday and Tuesday, Wednesday we finally got to go out and play a bit! We have some areas at our house where the drifts are over a foot tall....which left for some awesome snow play!


















Stay warm and safe everyone!

Friday, February 13, 2015

Valentine's

Tomorrow is valentines day....and I have the three most amazing valentines. I feel like the luckiest woman, to be 27 and know what honest, gut wrenching true love feels like. It's indescribable.

I knew when I met Zach that no one could ever give me the same amount of love, respect, and understanding that he did. He made me laugh, made me question and learn. He helped me become a better person all together. No one could ever in my eyes be better or more perfect for me. I still can't believe that Zach chose me to be his wife. Then, as if my love couldn't be grander, he gave me two of the most wonderful children, so perfect, yet so small. They were, literally, the most amazing, miraculous beings I had ever laid eyes or hands on. God granted me with this unbelievable gift- the gift of being Blake and Conor's mother. Being Zach's wife and Blake and Conor's mom is truly my biggest honor.






























Not a day goes by do I not have some thought and longing for Conor. But the fact that I was even graced to see this angel breathe life, if only for hours, is a gift itself. I saw an angel on this earth. I saw God's child, right in front of my eyes and he was mine. He was perfect. And I was his mother.

To my son, You will always be the glimpse of hope, on a other wise hopeless situation. You will always be the smile in the room full of frowns, and You will always be my peak of sunshine on a cloudy day.


"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping I dreamed I held you in my arms When I awoke dear, I was mistaken So I bowed my head and I cried You are my sunshine, my only sunshine You make me happy when skies are gray You'll never know dear, how much I love you Please don't take my sunshine away."

Wednesday, December 31, 2014



2015 was over all a good year.

It had it's moments that I could have done without.






But those same times, that were hard, and heart breaking had these rare moments, that through the tough was perfection. Memories that I will forever remember!








Time has a way of getting away from you, from slipping away. Children grow up right before your eyes...
they go from baby....



to a little trouble making tot in the snap of a finger.






We have made huge strides with Blake's therapy, we've learned to pull up on furniture!



Which means our house is a little more messy than usual!



We've cut that mop on head.....



And now look WAY to old for mommy's liking!



We've gone on vacations,









Our biggest part of therapy this year is we've learned to take steps with our gait trainer (a bigger version of a walker) it's still a work in progress and it's going to take some time to get him to use it independently....but it sure was such a HUGE deal!


We've celebrated christmas.....



And are now looking forward to the new year to come! I have a feeling....it's going to be the best one yet!

Saturday, December 6, 2014

My child

You were born so fragile, so weak, so small.
You fought so hard, but we didn't know if you'd make it at all.

You worked so hard, so determined and strong.
Your journey was so scary, and heartbreaking, and long.

You continue to fight, against all obstacle and odds.
But your story was more than our plan....it was God's.

It was his plan for you to live, for you to fight, everyday.
With help of the doctors, the nurses, and all the people who pray.

It was His will, for you to show the world that miracles are real.
It was His will for you to strive, for you to grow, for you to heal!

I'm thankful everyday for the life he gave you.
You amaze me with every single thing that you do!

Because of you, your daddy and I have grown more in love with each other.
I'm thankful everyday to be called your mother!



























Conor James


I miss you the most when it's quiet. When it's dark and I lay trying to sleep. My brain hits a switch and I start to think. I wonder how your features would have changed. How you would have grown. How you would have interacted with your brother. I wonder what it would have been to be a mother of twins. To be exhausted, always have my hands full with the two of you. I wonder how I would have wrestled you two to the ground, lost it when you were both being crazy and loud. I wonder how I would have handled the stress. I wonder how different life would be. I wonder how great it would have been. When it's just me and my thoughts it's the worse. It's me yearning for what could have been. No one will ever fill that hole in my heart. It's been 2 years 7 months and 23 days since I held you in my arms- heart beating, your crinkled face, your soft skin. It's been too long since I felt you. I know this holiday you are spending with your great grandpa's and grandmas- you have friends in heaven, little ones playing with you. I know that there is a reason, and I know that you are taken care of but I miss you everyday. I love you Conor and I wish you the most merry Christmas with beautiful songs and lights and a happiness I know only those in heaven get to feel! I love you and I miss you everyday!






Monday, December 1, 2014

Merry and Bright

Tis the season....to have Christmas tree needles on your floor, ornament glitter adorning every inch of your home, and hearing 100 different versions of "the Christmas song" playing in every place you go! We are starting to spread the holiday cheer here at the Hargis home. Glitter, music, and needles..... it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!



















"And think of him as living in the heart of those he touched.... For nothing loved is ever lost as he was loved so very much."












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